tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post112407114734844599..comments2023-11-03T03:55:49.696-04:00Comments on Christian, Gay, and Confused: 1. First PostJJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14689406528121267867noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-44125759673506998812012-05-10T23:21:44.254-04:002012-05-10T23:21:44.254-04:00I am an infertile woman who has struggled for 10 y...I am an infertile woman who has struggled for 10 years to have a child. There have been countless fertility cycles and miscarriages and donor eggs and donor embryos. And I've had to walk away from it all, still childless and barren.<br /><br />I've thought the very same things you have regarding living a long, pointless, painful life, waiting to die. And when I do die, who will even Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-12453844591093681052011-01-14T22:09:42.476-05:002011-01-14T22:09:42.476-05:00Reading your blog was like reading my own thoughts...Reading your blog was like reading my own thoughts in print - almost scary :)<br /><br />I'm a gay Christian woman in my early 30s, who (at least at least at this point in time) reads scripture in a more-or-less conservative way.<br /><br />Feeling pointless? Yep, been there -- I've often wondered if all my deepest feelings were merely futile. Wanting to die? Absolutely. I don't Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-43253616574181060682009-09-24T17:14:39.285-04:002009-09-24T17:14:39.285-04:00Thank you so much for your public thoughts on bein...Thank you so much for your public thoughts on being gay and Christian. I am a 30-year-old female pastor trying to learn as much as I can about my gay brother's struggles and even the depression/bitterness that comes along with that. He won't let me in, and has put up a wall with family since he came out 11 years ago when he was 16. I ran across your blog when I searched on google for aBrianne Johns (brianne.johns@cccev.com)noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-72347168498676885642009-03-13T09:46:00.000-04:002009-03-13T09:46:00.000-04:00"Looking out over my life and thinking that I'll b..."Looking out over my life and thinking that I'll be celibate (not married, no family, etc...) makes me want to die. Not kill myself, just die. I can't wait to die. Well, that's not true, I can wait...but what makes me cry at night is the idea that I'll have to live a long and pointless life just waiting to die."<BR/><BR/>I can sooooooo relate to this...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-1146377518602009422006-04-30T02:11:00.000-04:002006-04-30T02:11:00.000-04:00I feel your pain. Though much younger, I also have...I feel your pain. Though much younger, I also have been through a lot of what you did... though I think mine was worse. I tried to prove I was straight in the absense of crushes on men by going into bars and letting myself get picked up. It wasn't pretty, and I'm so ashamed of it I could cry.<BR/><BR/>God spoke to me in my life, told me to wake up to myself, and told me that it was much better toAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-1143831531410085922006-03-31T13:58:00.000-05:002006-03-31T13:58:00.000-05:00'I would rather die than live and never get marrie...'I would rather die than live and never get married', God. I've said that, and meant it when I've said it. There is so much more though, even though I don't know about those whos' lives I impact, or what ways God can use me. Too bad christians revert to their carnal nature when challenged by God to grow in the spirit. I know cause I'm one of them. There are reasons for living, live to your Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-1126921380644821512005-09-16T21:43:00.000-04:002005-09-16T21:43:00.000-04:00First off, I'm going to sound harsh, but you have ...First off, I'm going to sound harsh, but you have to stop letting other people make you miserable. There is nothing wrong with you, morally or otherwise. There is nothing to be fixed. It's not that there is something intrinsically wrong with being gay, it's that everybody else believes it and that's what makes it so. This is a social more akin to racist attitudes about brown people: that we are Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-1126902718174849472005-09-16T16:31:00.000-04:002005-09-16T16:31:00.000-04:00Sorry, apparently there are more blogs, I thought ...Sorry, apparently there are more blogs, I thought there was only this one. I will catch up.<BR/><BR/>LisaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-1126902527288841052005-09-16T16:28:00.000-04:002005-09-16T16:28:00.000-04:00Could you talk more about the conclusion that bein...Could you talk more about the conclusion that being a gay christian means a life of celibacy? How did your priest and yourself come to this conclusion? Why would God be happy that s/he/it gave you life and you spent it wanting to die? Could you explain how deciding to be celibate is leading to anything other than depression because it sure sounds like your very depressed and plenty of celibateAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-1126894226550690962005-09-16T14:10:00.000-04:002005-09-16T14:10:00.000-04:00Looking out over my life and thinking that I'll be...<I>Looking out over my life and thinking that I'll be celibate (not married, no family, etc...) makes me want to die.</I><BR/><BR/>Lemme ask just 1 question: how would dying alone, miserable and quite possibly a long time from now...glorify god?<BR/><BR/>I suggest it would not, but maybe you disagree. I suspect that you do not know that there are some christians that are accepting of gays, some Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-1126555911392544162005-09-12T16:11:00.000-04:002005-09-12T16:11:00.000-04:00What a cruel God you believe in...What a cruel God you believe in...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15429607.post-1124592593402717452005-08-20T22:49:00.000-04:002005-08-20T22:49:00.000-04:00jji can't fathom the struggle you are experiencing...jj<BR/><BR/>i can't fathom the struggle you are experiencing, but i must say that i hurt for you. it pains me to read the stuff about celibacy relegating you to purposelessness. i can't speak to the pain of being celibate, but i'm quite certain the a lack of purpose is not inherent to a celibate lifestyle.<BR/><BR/>i'm not prescribing celibacy for you. in fact, i'm uncertain what the bible David Wienshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15546121174347634968noreply@blogger.com